Growth is a life-long process, not a destination. Widow Fog is VERY COMMON. Knowing what it is, what it does to you, and how to cope - helps you grow, heal, and move through the fog FASTER. <3
I have more growing and sharing and crying etc. to do!! I have more to give!! My journey is still ongoing!! But the hopelessness part - the part where I didn't know how to "bounceback" from life's body slams -- It is finished. And I am thankful.
What is YOUR Assignment? My assignment?!? What MORE is there for me to endure, God? I get it. I understand the overwhelm. I get the fear, the PTSD of it all. Like maybe a fear of what MORE pain or struggle your future could hold. Or maybe the feelings of skepticism when you think about a God that would ask you to carry on through this pain and suffering- and then STILL carry out some mission-- after all this? It's a lot to consider...
I had to somehow get myself back together, and be able to function enough to raise two kids and work full time. ...I was so afraid I was going to die from the symptoms of each attack - and doctors couldn't do much for me other than give me more meds!
You are not made of your fears, your worries, or your current marital circumstance. You are MORE than that. Life is not only pain and suffering. You KNOW that. Play the GOOD times in that narrative too. Remember that YOU control who you are and what you do in response to all the things good or bad.
Has being a widow pushed you to become a leader? ..Do you feel like lessons learned in this arena could be used elsewhere in your life, perhaps even as part of your purpose?